05.12.09
Posted in Uncategorized at 6:39 am by scpgirl
Seriously sad sad and sad now !! i am really in bad mood !!!! I am trying to make myself relax all da time..but why all those ppl around me like to make me stress ??? Sometimes i really feel myself like a slave..4eva i have to do thgs for ppl around me and YET i wont get anything !! SERIOUSLYYYY!!
A lot of unhappy things happen this few weeks..And i really feel soooo unhappy..Just because i finally make up a decision which i think i will be more happy after i decide it….but end up with ppl who i really tot they care bout me argue with me…she say i am not rational enough to make this decision..but HELLO !!! before i make all those decision..you ..once again i say…YOU ARE THE ONE WHO ASK ME TO DO SOOOOOO OKIE ??!!! i did ask for your opinion right ??!!! Before i decide..u tell me all those negative things to make me follow wat u say..and say will support me no matter how…fish u laaaa !! now when i decide to goes along with u ..u change everything u tell me before this…say i not rational..never think nicely..this la that la..ask me to consider again bla bla bla..WTF !! wat u wan now ???? I never listen to u say i stuborn..i follow now say i not rational..den u tell me la…wat da hell u wan me to do now ???????!!!
And and and….i say okie..if wan me to reconsider everything…wait until i finish my final first …can understand that ?? FINAL !!! Den u say okie rite ?? but everyday..when i wake up..the 1st thing u saw me is telling me ” i never force u to reconsider..i give u time to think again…but can u reconsider again ?? !! Again and again !! u are running in a small circle..never come out from that..again and again…i telling u da same thing..let me finish my final 1st den i will think bout it..why u cant understand just a SIMPLE WORD ???!!! heloooo!! what u wan now ?? say give me times to think..but ask me to consider !!?? wtf la…u are not the one who involve in this problem ok ?? u are just an outsider in this case…like if i injured myself..and i tell u i am in pain..u know i am pain..but 4eva u dun feel the pain ok ??!! When i try to explain..u dont wan to listen..den end my call..ok fine !!! so start from tht moment..can u just keep ur mouth shut and let me do my things PEACEFULLY ???!! i dont wan to listen to any of ur crap again la please !!
I really hate ppl forcing me to do something !! What i decide , i wont change my mind..no matter how…so stop FORCING ME AGAIN !!!
This is onli 1/3 of my unhappy things..tired now…will update my blog next time when i am free and when i am still angry LOL~ thanks for reading my blog..at least i feel a bit relieve now…Bubye..
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12.27.07
Posted in Uncategorized at 10:18 am by scpgirl
It has been such a long time i never come to update my blog…haha…kinda lazy la sometimes and dun have anything special happen around me…LOL…
This year xmas kinda boring..nth special..cauz why…my dear is having his final exam..wish him good luck in his final ba….so ..v jz having our xmas nite like normal day..but though i never celebrated xmas ths year…i manage to celebrated our bbq party before all of us went back to our hometown at jamie house with some of my college fren….woot…kinda enjoy wif it…her condo is reali….waoOooo…nice…haha…god bless us…no rain at tht nite….Ahh…i learn a special bbq tht nite…phoebe teach us how to bbq mashmero (izzit spell like ths ar ?? ) ….haha….very nice o….thx phoebe…lol…u guys can try to bbq the mashmero and c…reali nice…hehe…urm..i like the food v having tht nite..muahaha…damn a lot..until v cant finish it…..swt..i dono got wat else to write again…hrm….i update it again when i free k ?? slppy now…and last…wish u guyz happy holidays and happy new year….c u guyz at next year lor….<33333333 ^^
oh yea..dear…gambateh in ur final ooo…u sure can do it well …dont b worry ok ??? MuaCkssss…………..
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08.22.07
Posted in Uncategorized at 2:34 am by scpgirl
today is the most terrible day for my whole life..never meet such a brainless ppl b4…summore is a haji… i tell u " PUiii !! " ….high educated so wat ?? haji so wat ??!! lecturer so wat ???!!! i tell u ..u are more brainless den an non educated ppl…
u guys knw wat happen to me today ?? 2day when the rest time for our malaysian study..our brainless malaysian study HAJI call me out…i tot wat happen that time …u knw when i reach in front of him …wat he tell me ??!! he said " i gona call the police rite now…u hav done a crime tht can make u to go into jail " …. i m so shock that time…den i ask what i have done …u knw wat the idiot tell me …. " cauz ur signature is diffrent…and i suspect u that u call other ppl sign for u attendance !! " FAINT ….wat a stupid thg tht ths idiot tell me….ok ..fine ..den i explain to him ..i said " sir…ths signature is both sign by myself….jz one i use my surname to sign and another i use my name to sign… " sure is diffrent la rite ?? my surname is chong and my name is weiting…how can the surname and my name signature will b the same word ?!! WTH ~~!! den he said " i dont believe u …i wan to take to the forensic to check wether is reali ur own signature o not … " so i tell him… " ok …jz go ahead…i will show u the true… " i not sked at all..cauz it reali my word…no matter how they test …its still my word….when he heard that …he reali get BOOM …den he started to sked…but he stil wan to find problem wif me …then he said " ok..now u go take a piece of paper and sign for me and c…." so i ma did it..after i sign and let him see..he not even dare to put the attendance sheet on the table to check…i call tht fella put down the paper to check in front of me…he said dowan…den after he curi-curi look at the attendance sheet…stil..he dowan to admit tht he is the one who wrong..den he tell me " oh..ur signature is all not same …. " i reali sweat tht time….he not dare to examine in front of me den he jz simple say that thts not my signature !! ok fine..so i tell him..if u stil not belive me …jz call the police and examine the word…den he said " i m a good lecturer…i dowan to make u in trouble…so i jz forget ths thg..but …i wil thk to band u frm exam .. " …walao….wat kind of word he said …den he call me go back to the seat…. tht time …i tot tht ths thg will jz end like ths…den u knw wat the stupid idiot did …when the cls started …tht idiot go and annouc to the whole cls wif my complete name…said tht i use fake signature trying to cheat him and when he call me out i stil dowan to admit i m the wrong one !! he knw i hav done nth wrong and he jz simply blame me like tht jz becauz he wan FACE !! tht time…everybody inside the cls looking at me ….i reali feel very embarrassing tht time…i have done nth wrong and u jz say me like tht..everybody inside the cls tot tht i reali is tht kind of person…i reali totally angry tht time..tht time..i reali feel like wan stand up frm the seat and scold him in front of everybody…but i stop it..i knw no point to doing like ths..i knw if i do like ths…he will hav excuse to complain to my head physio…so i jz trying to calm down and sit there…after the cls end…i ran out frm the cls to chase him…when tht fella saw me calling him..he run faster…trying to hide frm me…. eh..if u did not done anythg wrong..y u so sked to c me ?? if i m the one who wrong..y u muz ran away frm me ?? feel sked ar ??? i m onli ur student wor…am i …what can i do on u ?? den after i get him…i tell him i got sumthg to discuss wif him…still i spoke to him nicely…u knw wat he answer me ?? he said " oh..sorry…i m buzy rite now…bye bye .." wth !! u are the one who blame ppl simply and den u jz can walk away like ths ?? like nth happen ??!! so at last..i decide to complain ths thg to my physio head…i cry very terrible at her office that time….i reali can tahan…i dont wan anythg frm the stupid fella..i jz wan him to knw…i wan JUSTICE !!! thats all….i wan him to apologize to me in front of whole cls..but i knw he wont..but at lease i wan him to knw tht …. v as a student also need some respect..v are not tht one who can let u blame simply…u as a HAJI ….PLZ…BEHAVE UR OWN WORD AND ATTITUDE !! GOD KNW WHAT U HAVE DONE !! THS IS THE WORD THT U ALWAYS SAY…PLZ USE IT ON URSELF…UR MOUTH IS USE TO TALK BUT NOT TO TALK PPL BAD THG AND BLAME PPL !! THANKS !!
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08.15.07
Posted in Uncategorized at 11:33 am by scpgirl
The time now is 2.09 am …i jz finish talking on phone wif my dear….v jz having sum argument a few minutes ago….Is my fault…I dint try to understand his situation…he sick today…terrible fever…but he still trying his best to pick out sum times during his rest to accompany me by sms wif me…and yet…i dint notice all of ths , becauz he never tell me that he having a very terrible fever …i stil blame him that he never care bout me jz becauz he did not talk to me on phone…how careless i am…for the first time…i heard my dear cry in front of me..i know..he reali feel very disapointed wif my attitude…and i also feel the same on myself !! say the true …since me and he been together for 2 year ++ ..i never heard and even saw my dear drop a tear ….ths is the first time..he is a very tough guy…no matter how stress or wat he meet , he never cry …. and ths time…he cry….i knw…ths is becauz he love me too much & reali very disapointed wif my attitude AND he is reali break down ths time …i knw …i am too much ths time….i reali feel shock when i heard he cry…and that time…i can reali felt that my heart is very pain….he is having a high fever and reali tired wif a lot of activities for whole day…and yet..i stil argue wif him until midnight and dowan to let him go to slp although he is fever and hav to wake up at 7 morning the next day ….i reali feel very angry wif my attitude tonight !! I HATE MYSELF !! REALI !! I am still cant stop crying when i write ths blog…i reali feel very regret …
since the day he bcum my bf until now…watever i wan…he also will try his best to satisfied me as long as he can able to do it …no matter how notti i am or done wrong…everytime..he also will let me win at the last ….i knw…he reali love me so much..and i love him as much as he love me also…at here…i would like to say sorry to my dearest one….
Dear…thanks for everythg u given to me…i reali appreciate it…i knw..sometimes i might be too emotional ….and u are the one who wil stay beside me no matter how….i am so sorry for what i done tonight…i realise that i am the one who are wrong..not you…although u say u never angry wif me…but i stil wan to say sorry to u…i am the one who break ur heart….i promise u that i wont repeat the same thg anymore…i will try to grow up and become a better lou por for u…you are the best for me and the one i care and love the most in ths world…i love you so much my dear…thanks and sorry… Love you …
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08.09.07
Posted in Uncategorized at 7:36 am by scpgirl
Haiz..dono how to start my blog act…jz wan to release sumthg tht kept inside my heart… "J" & "Y" … i knw u 2 sure know who i m talking bout….jz let me do it..i dun have other meaning..i jz wan to talk out so tht i can feel better…reali…
Ok ..start …
I reali dun like her personality…first ..as i told my fren…i dun reali like ppl to copy everyword tht i say….cauz for me…ths is a very rude attitude…every ppl in ths world hav their own style and own way to talk…why there are so many ppl in ths world and u stil wan to copy my word…so irritating u knw…everytime when i talk or say sumthg ..sure u will follow by the same word and even "sound effect " …and second…the most i hate is…ppl take or eat my thing without permission ….ths is the most bad attitude which i dun like…i mean…i not a selfish ppl…u wan my thg…sure i will giv u…but PLEASE !! ASK FOR MY PERMISSION…even my good fren also knw how to ask for my permission and me also will do that on them..(although v knw each other very well ) ths is nothing but jz a kind of polite attitude lor..show that u respect the people…can u try to learn that ?? is not onli for me..i believe tht many ppl also dun like ppl take their thing without permission rite ?? and u also …correct ?? so …please and thanks…If u are curious that why when u did tht and without asking my permision and i dint say anythg…that i becauz i dowan to make u feel shame…i am trying to thk bout the situation for u…and can u also did like tht on me ?? i belive tht "J" & "y" already help me to told u ur problem…so i hope that you will having some improvement on ths…mayb one day …our realtionship will become better..just giv me some time..dun force me….i reali need sometimes to make myself accept u..thank you…
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06.22.07
Posted in Uncategorized at 10:38 pm by scpgirl
today one of my UM fren came to me…she’s complain to me that her coursemate is such a (….) ppl…she wondering why in ths world..they are so many such kind of ppl…for the 1st time..i saw she’s crying for such a long time…i reali dono how to cool her down…but anyway..i admit that …in ths world..there are having a lot of busy body ppl…they always like to go and care other ppl thg which not related to themself…reali dun understand la ..haiz…frm small..my parent teach me…dun go and involve in other ppl gosip and also dun go and talking ppl bad stuff if v dono the true…..yup..i m totally agree wif my parent….but the sad thg is…not all ppl understand this….haiz…just like wat my fren is facing now…she tell me that she reali dint done anythg…yes..i belive on her..but…i wont go and say the ppl bad thg lor…cauz i never see tht thg by myself…i cant judge tht whether is my fren wrong or tht ppl wrong…what i done is..i jz can console her as well…Angelin…please b tough okie…if u stay strong…nobody wil hurt u anymore….sry for cant help u on this…cauz i reali dono what happen between u and ur fren…my advise is….dun go and reply or fight wif those ppl again ..okie ? no point to argue wif ths kind of childish ppl…u are a mature gal…dont b sad juz becauz ths kind of ppl… juz let them do what they wan…when they grow older..they wil realise tht they are such a fool for doing ths kind of thing on u….belive me ok ? take care…i wil always support u …. GAmbateh !
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06.01.07
Posted in Uncategorized at 11:42 pm by scpgirl
hmm….dono how to start my blog = =…well..jz wana to thanks sumbody who give me a very suprise b`day…haha…reali thanks to yvonne , jamie , trudy , vivian , phang and of couse…my beloved dear dear for giving me such a suprise b`day…wat i wan to say is…yvonee , jamie & also trudy…u guys reali good in acting ar….pretent like nth happen but actually try to give me such a big suprise !! omg….i stil can remember…tht day …at 1st the jamie and trudy say wan go to the curve wif me , vivian and yvonne …but after a while…she said tht her sis wan her to go back…so she and trudy cant folow us…okie..i belive tht…when i reach "heaven" (a restaurat ) at the curve..i went to the wash room..and suddenly..yvonne enter the wash room and call me to cum out quickly….swt…i reali tot sumthg terrible happen tht time…and when i reach the elevator…omg !! wat i saw is…my dear is cuming up frm the elevator wif a b`day cake at his hand following by jamie and trudy !! arghh…i reali feel very very suprise and touching tht time….i never thk tht my dear wil appear at kl to celebrated my b`day wif me !! oh god !! reali thanks to u all la…thanks yvonne , jamie & trudy for contact my dear and specially thanks to phang cauz went to ipoh to fetch my dear to kl…..without any1 of u…i cant celebrated my b`day wif my dear…..i reali love u guyz so much…muackss muackss….oh yea…thanks for the disney handbag that u all giv me as b`day present…i love it so so so much…thanks…jamie & trudy , yvonne & vivian , no wonder wat happen outside …our friendship will never died…friend 4ever…love u all …muackss *huggies*
specially for my dear :
dear…thanks for cuming to kl to celebrated my b`day wif me…i reali feel very touching and suprise…so lucky to have u in my life…i love u my dear..muacksss…
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04.14.07
Posted in Uncategorized at 10:54 am by scpgirl
haiz…y recently me so bad luck geh..frm last few week …i start bad luck until now…1st is my right hand was scalded by hot boiling water ( omg !! u knw how pain is it ??!! ) …den for the next few week…i cant use my hand to write…sms…and even brush my teeth … 
haiz..but luckily my finger stil ok…haha..can use it to type word…hahaha…but the hand reali feel damn pain lor….can even put my hand down…when the gravity start pulling…my hand wil feel very pain…haiz…reali is sui sui sui…this stil ok …. by the day before i wan to come back to kl…my stupid laptop dono wat happen…suddenly spoil pulak !! arrghhhhh……so angry…den i ma fast fast take it to the shop to reformat and repair lor…finally…the next day…i can get my laptop back…and its ok ad…but everythg in my laptop…i hav to set up again…haiz…ths stil ok….the day when i reach my kl home…dono wat happen again…my wireless routher "mou duin duin" spoil !!! omg !! i reali going to mad ad lor…..haiz…y those sui thg always wan to follow me geh !! why why why ???!! arrghh…damn sui arrrr~~~ haiz..but i accept it lar…no choice wut…wat can i do…aih…..
ok lar…dowan to talk bout those sui thg again lar….talk bout my new experience…hehe…2day i go to ice skating at sunway with my fren oo…haha…a very very new try for me…haiz…but ice skating reali not easy to learn…when i stand on the ice…i cant even stand stabil…how am i going to walk wor…. = = so jealous with those ppl who can skate so fast and sum can even dance on the ice…i hope i can b like tht sumday !! hahaha….tht time…i m "skating queen " !! lol…at lease tht time i got at least one skill ma….haha..not like now…sport dono…play piano also dono….wat also dono…haiz…looks like stupid = = hmm…i thk i should add oil to learn skating lor !! i wan bcum a …errm… oh yea … " 1 skill queen" …hahhahaha…. ^^ i also dono wat is tht…hehe … and after skating…i went to eat steamboat with my fren at sri petaling ( if i not mistaken ) …ooo…the steamboat there very nice wor…haha…eat until me so so so full ~~ haha…and wat i m happy is i meet three new frens 2day …they are very nice and funny ppl…feel so happy to meet them…hope next time can go out to eat again lor…hehe… ^^ ok ba…so sleepy after play for whole day…go slp le o ~~ nite nite ~~
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01.05.07
Posted in Uncategorized at 2:00 pm by scpgirl
the time now is morning 05.46 am…haha..y am i stil awake..haih…no choice…hav to study lor…exam coming jor…hrm…dono y …i prefer to stay awake at nite to study until morning…haha..for me…like ths onli i can memories all those thing tht i study…so fast…one year gone jor….time reali pass so fast….a while onli…me and my bf going to be together two years jor…haha…dono ths "unromantic" guy wil giv me wat suprise again ler….dear…i am waiting for ur suprise yea…haha…but…watever la…wat he giv me also i wil like..cauz he reali is a very good guy…although he is not romantic…but he wil giv me wat i wan…he is the one who is always stay by my side to support me no wonder wat thg happen…he is the one who wil lend me shoulder when i wan to cry…i reali hav to say thanks to the god for let me to meet ths guy and finally become his gf…although sometimes v having some arguement…although he knw i am wrong…but he stil let me win…i knw all of ths…hav to say sorry to him cauz always bully him..yek yek yek…i know i m notty la…dear..u are going to hav ur final liao lo…work hard o…muz bcum a very successfull doctor in future wor..hehe..den tht time u ma can bring me go many place to play lo { p/s he always say sorry to me cauz he cant bring me go any place to play } oh yea….at here…i also wan to say thanks a lot to all my coll fren…thx for supporting me and caring me when i face wif problem…sorry for having some misunderstanding to all of you before..sorry…wuwuwu..i knw wrong liao..hope u all wont mind …fren 4ever …promise yea..hehe…Gambateh to all of us !! v sure can pass our 30 % and also final geh !! +u +u !!! muahaha
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10.30.06
Posted in Uncategorized at 5:13 am by scpgirl
haih…my raya holiday jz pass by….and my final exam hav coming soon…hiahzzzzz…..study reali very suffer …..most ppl say study is not suffer…the most suffer is working …..izzit real ??!! i also dono…4 me….study suffer….working also suffer….aiyah…as long as v grow up….our life is starting 2 be more and more suffer ad….haih…i reali very jealous wif all d baby…being a baby reali very good…..no need 2 thk 4 exam …nonit 2 study….hungry or wat…jz need 2 cry liao…den everybodi wil starting 2 get d thg tht baby wan…..wahhhh…reali like king lo…wakaka….how good ….I also wan 2 b a baby !!! i dowan ths kind of suffer life anymore !!!! god ar !! plzzzz help me !!! ARGHHHHHHHHh
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